She's there, I know she is, because she comes out every once in a while and makes her presence known.
It wasn't until recently that I became conscious of her. She would peek out every now and then but I never really payed much attention before. It started out as a feeling, a longing, that happened at particular times and would leave me feeling melancholic mostly. Other times I would feel almost giddy with happiness. These feelings would come on suddenly and quite powerfully, but I never really stopped to question what they were or where they were coming from.
The more I pay attention and the more familiar I become with her, the more I realize that it is in certain circumstances and with one person in particular that she shows herself the most. And now that I think about it, this person that brings her out in me - my second Mom - always has. She has always allowed me to be me and only now, when I can let that little girl inside roam free, do I realize what a gift that is.
I would venture to guess that most people do not dare give their inner child free rein; but it is such a liberating feeling that I would recommend it to anyone. It's not that I do it much, or often, but when I do it's magical, and I am so very grateful to my second Mom for giving me this very special gift.
I love you, Mom2... and so does your little girl ❥❥❥